Day #1 December 6, 2011 259#

I have decided to keep a diary, aka blog. I need some kind of accountability and a place to just randomly say what's on my mind related to my weight.

Dear Diary,
I have been "solid" my entire life. I never thought of myself as "fat" as a child.  I was "big boned". NO, really, I AM big boned. I have hands that are longer and wider then my husbands. Actually, they are larger then ANY man's I have ever met. That tells you, I AM big boned. BUT, I am also FAT!

See the title? 259# this morning. I don't have a scale at home. It for some reason gives me issues to have a scale at home. I weighed at work on an old slider scale. This is 4# lighter then my heaviest weight ever!! I have only been lucky to keep that 4# off, because I sure haven't been trying!

So, here we go! I ate like a pig today, but plan to start HERE and NOW, to actually TRY. We'll see how it goes. The 1st thing I want to work on is the follow....

1. Drink LOTS of water
2. Increase your fiber intake
3. Eat only when you’re hungry
4. Count your calories
5. Drink a glass of water before every meal
6. Eat breakfast
7. Limit your intake of red meat
8. Chew each bite of food 8-12 times before swallowing
9. Use the stairs rather than the elevator
10. Drink green tea
11. See how many pushups, situps, etc. you can do during a commercial break
12. Only make enough food for a proper serving, so you don’t keep eating when you’re not hungry
13. Keep healthy snacks around the house
14. Sit up straight
15. EXERCISE

I think I can do all of this, except the green tea! I HATE IT!! So, tomorrow, I take the stairs to the 3rd floor where I work. I will eat breakfast and drink a glass of water before each meal. That's a good start, right?? I will get back to you, dear Diary, with how I did!

Notice on the pics that I cropped the top picture. I didn't want my fat arm to be the center of attention on the picture!!

Also, check out my profile pic! That is me at right around 200#. I had NEVER felt better about myself. That was 5 years ago!

What's funny is that I do have good self esteem on the exterior. I love life and I think you are lucky to be included as someone I call friend. I am a good person, a good mother, a good Christian, a good friend and a heck of a lot of fun to party with. Some day I will post pictures of the same night as these pictures. LOL, not ready to go there with you yet, dear Diary! LOL

I love ME and just want to be a better ME!
Until tomorrow or whenever I post again, Good night!