Long time, no see, huh??

Dear Diary,

Yep, as expected, I went AWOL! But, day by day, I'm back. Robert threw out his back 2 weeks ago and has been bed bound. He had surgery last Tues, then Sunday was Christmas. Enough excuses?? Seriously, I was a single Mom for 2 weeks and still the only one working for the next 11!!

Ok, so I got a new KU mug with a lid and straw. I have always been better about drinking water thru a straw. So, I brought the cup to work and thought that maybe with baby steps I could start something. I drank 2 glasses of water yesterday and 2 1/2 today. Baby steps!!!

I have new stretch marks on my stomach that itch. It's embarrassing to say, but I want to be honest. I hate them. They are bright red and waaaayyyy towards the top of my abdomen! Sucks!

Later, Terri

I think out was a sign!

I ram into am old friend yesterday in my work cafe. She had list a ton of weight! We had been on the same diet at one time what I developed kidney stones. The hospitalist said out could have been the appetite suppressants I was taking. I immediately stopped them, a did my friend when I told her the story.

She said she has list 60# with Weight Watchers. she is only doing the points and has not increased her exercise yet. She liked so good. I was inspired!

Then, guess who checks me put at every front!!!?? My old WW LEADER!!! Iloved her and at one point was successful with at WW with her as my leader.

God has dropped enough hints.... I think I better look into this!!

UGH!

Stupid Christmas treats! How do you make yourself stay out of them? IDK!!!! :(

Day #1 December 6, 2011 259#

I have decided to keep a diary, aka blog. I need some kind of accountability and a place to just randomly say what's on my mind related to my weight.

Dear Diary,
I have been "solid" my entire life. I never thought of myself as "fat" as a child.  I was "big boned". NO, really, I AM big boned. I have hands that are longer and wider then my husbands. Actually, they are larger then ANY man's I have ever met. That tells you, I AM big boned. BUT, I am also FAT!

See the title? 259# this morning. I don't have a scale at home. It for some reason gives me issues to have a scale at home. I weighed at work on an old slider scale. This is 4# lighter then my heaviest weight ever!! I have only been lucky to keep that 4# off, because I sure haven't been trying!

So, here we go! I ate like a pig today, but plan to start HERE and NOW, to actually TRY. We'll see how it goes. The 1st thing I want to work on is the follow....

1. Drink LOTS of water
2. Increase your fiber intake
3. Eat only when you’re hungry
4. Count your calories
5. Drink a glass of water before every meal
6. Eat breakfast
7. Limit your intake of red meat
8. Chew each bite of food 8-12 times before swallowing
9. Use the stairs rather than the elevator
10. Drink green tea
11. See how many pushups, situps, etc. you can do during a commercial break
12. Only make enough food for a proper serving, so you don’t keep eating when you’re not hungry
13. Keep healthy snacks around the house
14. Sit up straight
15. EXERCISE

I think I can do all of this, except the green tea! I HATE IT!! So, tomorrow, I take the stairs to the 3rd floor where I work. I will eat breakfast and drink a glass of water before each meal. That's a good start, right?? I will get back to you, dear Diary, with how I did!

Notice on the pics that I cropped the top picture. I didn't want my fat arm to be the center of attention on the picture!!

Also, check out my profile pic! That is me at right around 200#. I had NEVER felt better about myself. That was 5 years ago!

What's funny is that I do have good self esteem on the exterior. I love life and I think you are lucky to be included as someone I call friend. I am a good person, a good mother, a good Christian, a good friend and a heck of a lot of fun to party with. Some day I will post pictures of the same night as these pictures. LOL, not ready to go there with you yet, dear Diary! LOL

I love ME and just want to be a better ME!
Until tomorrow or whenever I post again, Good night!